irreplaceable [closed, pink]
Feb 3, 2015 23:43:23 GMT -5
Post by BLUBBLES THE MONSTER on Feb 3, 2015 23:43:23 GMT -5
I had been with him for a while, more by choice that fear now. I was nothing more than a pet a toy, but I was something. I was safe standing behind me so to speak, though he hurt my feelings sometimes occasionally I got knocked around. He hadn't let anybody damage me to the point I wasn't going to make it. I must have been of mild importance to him or maybe he just didn't have the guts to say he enjoyed my company. Sometimes I enjoyed his when he didn't have his balls in a knot. I felt like there was so much more to Arlen than he lead on, but he just wasn't willing to let anybody know that.
Today I had spent alone hidden away in the meadow that was boxed in by walls. I had been useful this morning, I hunted. I did more than just sit around. I hadn't found Arlen after though so I took the chance to actually be away from him. Sometimes I felt slightly boxed in by his presence like I couldn't breath. I felt judged, but maybe I was just being over sensitive. Yeah that was it, I was being over sensitive. "God..." I mumbled to myself as shook my head lightly disapproving of how I felt about everything. I had it good here, far better than I had in any of my many years. I wasn't walking around bleeding or being force to be with disgusting men. I had a quiet life with a brute who all I had to do was keep company to. That wasn't bad?
I sighed as I looked up. The sky was darkening quickly, but I hadn't left the meadow. It was so quiet and peaceful that I didn't want to leave. I didn't want to return to the chatter so instead I sat down in the middle of the field and just looked up to the stars. After the hurricane came though it left the sky clear. Winter was hitting hard with a chill, but I didn't mind the cold. My coat was thick enough though I had a feeling later on in the night it was going to be chilly. I hated feeling chilled and icy. I wished for a warmer place to be napping later, but it seemed I could never find one. I shrugged my shoulders at myself and let another sigh go. "Why can't every night be as nice as this one..." I muttered to myself.