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Jan 7, 2015 21:30:50 GMT -5
Post by Windy on Jan 7, 2015 21:30:50 GMT -5
Hey all,
This is Windy from early last year. I feel like an entirely different person, and in some respects, I am.
I hope those who I disturbed forgive me for disappearing so suddenly and so frequently. It wasn't directed out of hatred for RiA or anyone here in general. The fact that I kept coming back is actually proof of my love for this place. Everyone here is so accepting and pleasant, and the things that aren't are only works of fiction. Of course, this isn't how the real world works, and when I found myself caught between the two, I had to choose reality. This doesn't mean I didn't have my cheats. I took to writing. Lots and lots of it. I wanted to get better, since let's be honest, I wasn't at an advanced level when I joined. I wanted to be better when I came back. I dabbled in various other forms of expression, bettering my sketching and art, moving up to first chair as a musician, and actually trying in school. Perhaps my manips, if they can be called that, have improved, no?
Truth is, I was struggling and am still struggling with mental health and addiction for almost four years now, and have only had the nerve to confront these demons in the past few months. We (professional help and I) are trying to figure out what's... wrong? Different? And ways to help me persist. It's going slowly, but compared towhat where I was a couple months ago, progress has been massive. So. Yay me!
I just want to say that I'm going to take things slowly- one character at a time- and try and ease my way back into RiA. Please be patient with me! I'm a goof. I goof up a lot. If I goofed up writing this here, let me know! Oh yeah, and I want to thank everyone on this forum! I can't tell you how many times I burst out laughing during the most random parts of the day because I remember some crazy chat happening in the C-Box, or how I still feel sad because SOMEONE ELSE'S character died and it moved me so much. This is the one place where I never viewed critiquing as anything more than motivation. I never
I dunno man. I'm just happy to be back.Missed my Birdy.
This is Windy from early last year. I feel like an entirely different person, and in some respects, I am.
I hope those who I disturbed forgive me for disappearing so suddenly and so frequently. It wasn't directed out of hatred for RiA or anyone here in general. The fact that I kept coming back is actually proof of my love for this place. Everyone here is so accepting and pleasant, and the things that aren't are only works of fiction. Of course, this isn't how the real world works, and when I found myself caught between the two, I had to choose reality. This doesn't mean I didn't have my cheats. I took to writing. Lots and lots of it. I wanted to get better, since let's be honest, I wasn't at an advanced level when I joined. I wanted to be better when I came back. I dabbled in various other forms of expression, bettering my sketching and art, moving up to first chair as a musician, and actually trying in school. Perhaps my manips
Truth is, I was struggling and am still struggling with mental health and addiction for almost four years now, and have only had the nerve to confront these demons in the past few months. We (professional help and I) are trying to figure out what's... wrong? Different? And ways to help me persist. It's going slowly, but compared to
I just want to say that I'm going to take things slowly- one character at a time- and try and ease my way back into RiA. Please be patient with me! I'm a goof. I goof up a lot. If I goofed up writing this here, let me know! Oh yeah, and I want to thank everyone on this forum! I can't tell you how many times I burst out laughing during the most random parts of the day because I remember some crazy chat happening in the C-Box, or how I still feel sad because SOMEONE ELSE'S character died and it moved me so much. This is the one place where I never viewed critiquing as anything more than motivation. I never
I dunno man. I'm just happy to be back.